I Feel Unimportant Today

Nothing has ever entrenched me in my own beliefs than when I finally realized I was transgender and did something about it.  Nothing prepared me for the endurance I needed to show the world my face, my mind and my soul.  I am human, and nothing beyond that truly matters!  When I am gone, will my legacy and the two sons I fathered really care that I was transgender?

I couldn’t begin to fathom that revelation.  Nothing prepared me for the loss of dear close friends, people I confided in when it mattered the most and the eventual loss of life that we all must endure when lost are the loved ones, called Home to Greener Pastures.

Nothing prepared me for the move to Mississippi from Florida.  Such a different and hateful place; moreso that I’m transgender; not to mention I’m lesbian too.  I have no friends locally; I have family locally, but many of them are distant or refuse to see me for the wonderful and lovely person I am.

I have become so much more than the sum of my parts, including my ‘danglies’ that will be dealt with soon enough.  I feel I am just trapped in a body that’s not even mine– I guess I’m renting it– until such time as I can make the renovations to make it truly my own.  This is the limbo, the Purgatory, I’m living in:  Not feminine enough for the trans-community’s most vocal pundits, and not lesbian enough or woman enough for cis-gendered lesbians and their unforgiving ilk.  Nothing hurts me more than to tell me “[you’re] not worthy!”

Dammit, I’m more woman than you’ll ever know, care to know, or experience!  Shove off…  Or as some of my British friends would say:  “Bugger off, Wanker!”  I’m fed up with this stereotyping and complacency in the groups and chats and pages of Lesbians and other Transgender groups on Facebook and other social media sites!  I created Trans Out World Magazine (http://transoutworld.tk) for all of is who have felt the harassment of “tranny”-chasers, trolling Christian hate-mongers, and other such unsavory miscreants.  Nary a day goes by when I’m accosted by scam artists from Nigeria, people who claim to be Americans willing to help me and yet demand money from me when I’m still trying to collect on my royalties, and others who just want me to ‘take it off’ and ‘show me’.  I’m not that kind of gal, and refuse to have long-distance masturbation sessions– HELL NO!– and that’s all sexting and chat-sex are; nothing more!

I am a woman of high morals.  I am a woman of decent standards.  I am a woman that loves the rich life, but understands I don’t have the budget for that.  My credit is poor.  I owe for student loans and I’m unemployed because I am unable to get out to find work; the internet is a lovely proposition, but there’s no one really hiring for anything that would allow for me to stay home and work and do my job– retail sales are taken care of by automated systems, tossed off to real people in warehouses and logistics locations, then shipped off to you– what part of this allows me to intercede or intercept anything in this situation from home?  Nothing, again.  My computer expertise is relegated to specific systems and application, of which I’d love to tutor, but alas no one trusts the ‘outsider’.

I have been writing for a long time.  Since before I realized I knew what the word “imagination” meant.  I was a smart kid, read far above the grade level (I was reading second year college in fifth grade), and I loved to play house, and dress up and tea party, and my dad wanted nothing to do with that.  He literally tried to beat it out of me at age 5!

I still love dinner parties and entertaining.  I love to cook and bake and make things happen in the kitchen; this time spent with my sister Cindy has proved challenging, but also enlightening and because I can assimilate a lot of things in any environment, I can work things out in my head for substitutions for people with food allergies, or the dislike of certain foods.  it’s works for many people, and it works for me:  I’m allergic to cinnamon and coconut, two healthy agents that help to curb hunger and lose weight naturally.  (Sucks to be me… LOL)

I am not usually this eloquent when I speak, but that’s all going to chance, and very soon!  I am working on several projects, the least of which if the aforementioned online magazine.  I want the very best for my Trans* Family!  The very best!  I am working on a trans-friendly homeless shelter, specializing in education, counseling for allies and trans, a safe environment from bullying and negative impacts, a location for those in transition to transition into proper residential situations, blood testing with an endocrinologist on site (hormones levels, HIV/AIDS, medical conditions), and a RNP on-site for routine visits and prescriptions.  I would also provide meals to homeless people, whether trans or not, and have a separate location, on-site- with a chaperone, for out trans-youth who have been put out of their homes due to unaccepting parents or guardians.

I am also proposing the creation of a charity organization called “Sisters’ Hearts Gateway” that will be available to provide, at little or no cost, resources for all of our Trans Family worldwide!  I want this charity to help provide employment, housing and educational assistance in the US, with branches in every country in the world.  I want to do this by the end of 2015.  This is no small task!

I want to make my magazine a printed publication for the Trans Community to make things happen and to give them a reason to no longer be afraid of coming OUT; let us help make that a reality for the many who are still closeted.  I also have three businesses that I can’t run on my own:  one is an indie game development studio, one is a graphic design studio, and one is a game guide and book publishing entity.  None of these are real without me.  None of these are here without me.  I am willing to go the extra mile to be the largest trans-employed entity in the world and it all starts with you:  family, friends and allies!

I need to get to Los Angeles and to document this all the way.  I am so nervous with anticipation that I can’t contain myself!  I want to get underway very quickly and be there before Christmas (or New Year’s Day) if possible.

I am a woman of vision and a woman of dreams!  I am a visionary and someone who truly cares about equality and human rights.  Please help me to achieve my goals, and through this effort, we can be proud to be called Transgender!  Please help me to make this happen!

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I Need Signatures to Run for the Presidency of the United States

I am seeking enough signatures to run for the Presidency of the United States and I am posting this in my blog for the world to see.

I am the Internet Equality Candidate! I’m Transgender and Lesbian AND I want to be on the 2016 Presidential Ballot!

My agenda is simple:
1) LGBTQ Equal Rights across the board– anyone who violates any policy regarding Marriage Equality, Employment Anti-Harassment / Discrimination Policies, or are turned away for seeking proper medical care will be strictly dealt with including fines and/or possible imprisonment.

2) Gun Control? NO! Criminal Control! This is only common sense… Limiting the guns these mentally infirm people can purchase and own, by having an IQ and a psychological battery performed per new gun owner, to help weed out the mentally-unstable among us who could potentially be a threat. No more are we going to ban guns, just ban the potential threats from having and owning guns. This just makes sense.

3) Bringing back manufacturing jobs to the US! There are people willing to work these jobs who have little to no experience, and are willing to be responsible to help keep American products flowing into the marketplace. Training allowances for the unskilled employees and their employers. I would even make concessions for an up to 5% Federally-funded 401k package!

4) Tax breaks for Low Income and Poverty-Stricken families who work!

5) Elimination of Obamacare! — this just needs to be wiped off the books, reclaiming those funds and placing them where they were removed, and reordering the new taxes to be rescinded.

6) Reinstatement of the United States Military — self-explanatory

7) Reinstatement of the US Space Program (a.k.a. NASA) — self-explanatory

8) Minimum Standards in Education with Federal Placement Exams (FPE). Students that cannot pass the requirements of the FPE will remain in the grade until she can pass to graduate into the next grade. We have too many students who cannot read past the 6th Grade Level in the US, and are passed through because of incompetent teachers or lack of responsible parents who cannot pass these same tests. Other countries have this type of system and they’re WAY ahead of us in every aspect of education.

9) Immigration Reform. Far too often we hear “amnesty” from those politicians in power. “Amnesty for Illegals” is the wrong thing to do. I will demand that these people either become US Citizens or go back to their homeland. Sorry, no more Free Lunches!

10) “We are not the World’s Police.” JFK told us this oh so long ago and every president since must have missed that telecast! I’m sorry, I believe we need to be able to protect ourselves from whatever the world may throw at us. I’m not saying that we’re never going to assist anyone anywhere, but that we will be picking out battles more cautiously and go to bat with allies and not go it alone. This Syria business is unpopular with millions of Americans and Obama believes in helping the rebels… I don’t believe in funding terrorists on their own soil, to have it come back to haunt us later!

11) Religious equality for Places of Worship. Muslims, Christians, Judaism and other religions have the right to purchase and build Places of Worship, yet Wiccans and other Pagan religions, which are valid here in the US under the “Freedom of Religion” bits of the Constitution, cannot purchase property for the building of a Place of Worship. Wiccans (and Pagan Religions) are NOT “Devil Worshipers” like many non-Wiccan/Pagans believe. Other religions can build Temples, Mosques, Churches or Shrines, but not for Houses of Worship or Schools of Teaching. As with any Church (for lack of a better catch all term), there is learning and indoctrination going on with that particular religion, and there’s no call for not allowing the Wiccan religion to be able to do more, since it is a recognized religion by our Federal government.

I am looking for more items to add to this list, as it is not yet complete. I am also running as part of the Truth Brigade! No politician has ever been truthful about their past or about what they’re doing as Our President. Hidden and Mysterious Agendas abound and we’re the ones who get caught up in the crossfire! Political Action groups (PACs) are wiggling their ways into the pockets of politicians and earmarking monies that should be used to offset our massive deficit, repay and lower out debt ceiling, and to give back to the American Populace, while that same money lines the pockets of career politicians so the voices they are supposed to represent are never heard.

The career politicians are part of the problem and not a part of the solution. Term limits will be imposed on the House of Representatives and the Senate. A maximum of two terms, then a hiatus of at least one term before they can run again. This will ensure more and fresh representatives and Senators in these law-making houses. Fresh ideas and fresh faces for our Government!

There’s so much to do, so much to say. I am trans and lesbian. I am the right candidate for the job! My agenda is an agenda set in truth. We need to be able to instill confidence in Our Nation! We need to be able to have an economic stability in Our Nation, to instill international confidence in our products and our financial system! We need to be independent of outsiders loaning us money to jack up the debt ceiling. I will start offering up the salaries of the Senators and Representatives as repayment toward the National Debt! Product endorsements will be used to offset other debt that Our Nation is accruing! Should I go golfing, for example, I pay out of my own pocket and wear certain sponsored attire; those sponsorships’ monies will be funneled into Government Programs and Responsible Charities to help the homeless, the needy and destitute, poverty-stricken, low-income, medically-needy and the elderly! I’m sorry, but this is the New Agenda!

All I ask is just a little assistance. I am needing signatures for the petition to include my name on the 2016 Voters’ Ballot and the costs of filing my petition. Anyone willing to assist me in this– a signature and/or financial assistance for the filing feels– just comment below and let me know. You can also e-mail me to let me know.

Thank you! The Internet Equality Candidate. I am Robynn P. Mussell, Independent. Thank you for your time and patience.

Two Sides of the Same Coin

If there’s something that most people believe in, in this day and age, is God. But why are there so many different ways to believe? I believe what The Bible’s scriptures advise me. Nowhere in The Bible does it say that we, as a community, are to be feared, loathed and hated with such fierceness, that it makes me want to stop being a Christian! My version of choice: the King James Version (KJV).

We are all God’s Children! Created equally. Breathed life into equally. Given intelligence, imagination and insight equally! So where do you so-called “Good Christians” get off telling the world “God hates Gays!”?

I believe that if more Bible-thumpers and Anti-Gay Christians would actually read the KJV of the Bible and comprehend those scriptures, they would not be bashing us with they’re hateful rhetoric. And why is it always GAY and not LESBIAN?

I found a video, posted to my Facebook wall, that is very poignant. Here’s the link. “The Truth about Homosexuality” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUnAFWvXKLE

I am a transgender MtF and have been hiding as a man for many many years. I am also Lesbian. I know this to be true. I am one of many who struggle with my existence everyday, as I cannot find work locally. I don’t really know who

As human beings, upon Planet Earth, we are all a part of a Global Community. These rights should be *granted* to all of mankind, including all women everywhere, to allow free expression, the allowance for marriage, and to be treated as equals no matter where we go.

I do not condone this kind of behavior when I go to church. I don’t feel comfortable when people look upon me with judgement and disgust when I dress appropriately for me, and attend church when I go. For me, this is unacceptable and unhealthy, to be judged without my saying a word, but only by how I dress.

We are at the crossroads of equality, as Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. was when he had spoken his “I have a Dream” speech. We are truly being persecuted for who we are and what we believe in. Why can we not have equal rights? Why are we looked upon with disgust, disdain and hatred?

There is no Homosexuality Bug! We are not stricken with Cooties! HIV and AIDS are in the world, but not because of Homosexuals, but because of animals and scientists. It has come to us through the mishandling of bodily fluids from infected animals, and not through gay sex. Laws and policies were instituted to help protect people from mishandling bodily fluids, and those are still in effect, moreso now then ever.

The idea is that we’re all good people, Christian or not. Two sides of the same coin; heads and tails. There should be tolerance and acceptance of our differences, not fear- and hate-mongering. This kind of behavior should be stopped. It’s a form of bullying, and bullying, in all of it’s forms, must be stopped. We live in, what I call, Special Times! By believing in what we believe, and knowing what we know, we should all come to the conclusion that we are all a part of something wonderful.

Fear is what these people are trying to pander with their propaganda. Stand up against it. Become and ally to someone you know who is different, regardless of illness, religion or sexual preference/identity, and help her to achieve all she can be!

The question that sticks with me, even now: “Can’t we all just get along?”

Whence Gays Can Marry, The Apocalypse Cometh

I have a pretty active Facebook page, full of various likes, friends and a few games that I play to pass my time, but clicking on a link that George Takei had posted threw me for a loop, but once I realized it was just a comedic bit, it helped to soften the blow that I thought was going to be more Gay Bashing and Homosexual Hatred.  I was surprised.  Here’s the link so you too can watch:  The Ultimate Anti-Gay Marriage Ad.

I know I’m not here to tell people off, but this is what many so-called Christians think is going to happen…  The heavens are going to rain down fire and brimstone and destroy civilization as we know it.  It not going to happen.  Gay marriage is legal in Britain.  Gay marriage is legal in Sweden.  Gay marriage is legal in much of the United States…  Has there been an apocalypse?  Are we doomed in the eyes of the Lord?

Personally, I think not.  No one has the right to force his or her beliefs upon another person.  No one has the right to enact laws to force people to believe in an idea that is morally obtuse or socially irresponsible.  The refusal of Civil Unions or Gay Marriage is one of those ideas that help us stand for what is truly an equal footing.  There are homosexuals in the military who fight for the freedoms straight people have, but when it comes to those of us who love our life-partners and want to spend the rest of our lives with her, then we can’t!  This is the exact point I’m trying to make:  LezBeProud Episode 1.

I am Transgender!  I am Female!  Because I am this way, I am scrutinized in society for being different.  I may look and act different than someone who is not me, doing the same things I do:  drive the car, shop for clothes and groceries, walk to the mailbox.  We do the same things.  We make difficult decisions and casual choices everyday, just like everyone else!  If I am cut, do I not bleed?  If I am hurt, do I not feel pain?

Why do all of these people, who claim to be devout Christians (of whatever Christian sect), want to force their beliefs and their convictions upon the rest of us?  It’s far too easy to blame others for their religious persecution, because they believe it to be God’s Calling, or their religious right– turning the masses of heathens into Christians– and opening up space in Heaven for them to call Home.  I was Christian before I was Transgender!  I know about all of these things, but the Holy Scriptures have helped me to understand specific concepts that are very out-of-date.  The Holy Bible seems more a book of Moral-Based Stories around the lives of those Jesus and the Lord had devoutly touched.  “Take the good path.”  “Do unto others …”  “Listen and take the advice of your elders.”  “Don’t judge lest ye be judged.”  “Love thy neighbor.”  Where did the devout Christians go wrong?

Mass media and spin-off religious sects tend to pull the focus away from Love and Kindness to Blasphemy and Hatred.  It really makes me angry to see a religious jihad against anything LGBT.  Yes, I did say “religious jihad”.  That’s what it seems to be, more and more in the media, in the laws those Christians vote into power, forcing us who are allied and friends of our LGBT family to vote against such hatred.

We fight your wars.
We live with you in the cities, towns and farms.
We deliver your packages and mail.
We are helpful to you at Walmart and Sears and JCP and Kohl’s.
We wash your cars and clothes.
We care for your children.
We teach your children in schools.
We drive the streets as you do.
We eat at the same restaurants.
We dance and have fun at the same clubs.
We exercise and work out, just like you do.
We haven’t invaded, we were here all along!
It’s just now that you’re starting to see us for the first time!

Why is it that you’re afraid of us?  We’re not going to impose the same restrictions that you’ve unthinkingly imposed upon us.  That’s not the right thing to do.  Being Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual or Trans (transsexual, transgender) does not rub off or is ever contagious; it is the state of our being that gives us the right to oppose the Social Normalcy of Male and Female gender roles.  We are not a religious sect or fad.  We have our Atheists and Christians.  We have Buddhists and Hare Krishnas.  We have other religions as well, but we don’t persecute someone for being weird:  we embrace their compassion for being unique, individual!  It is our lot in life to accept the uniqueness and individuality that everyone possesses, not just those of the LGBT community!

To us:  Everyone is Equal.  That’s the way God intended!  That’s what the Constitution of the United States intended!  As members of One World Society, we are ALL equal.  All of us!